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May. 16th, 2013

Aie. So life continues to be busy, and I continue to not be handling it as gracefully as I would like.

Currently I'm sick again, this time with bonus sore throat that makes sleeping more difficult than normal congestion, so I've had three days of being extremely mentally vague and kind of useless. So thanks for that innovation, body. I have been sick more in the past year than I can ever recall in the stretch of one year. Also, I really, really need to be better for next week's performance at Balticon, so any wellness thoughts that can be thought in my direction would be appreciated.

Generally, though, I'm worried about what this means in terms of level of stress I'm currently handling versus what is actually a good idea. In particular, I am concerned because I want to go back to school, and I cannot imagine adding that on to every task I am currently doing would end up with me remaining healthy and functional.

I think I really have to stop at some point and evaluate what is important to me and prioritize accordingly, because I don't think I'm in a sustainable place in terms of my long term happiness, even if no one thing on my list is making me unhappy.

Actually, also on the current list of stressors is our landlord's continued inability? refusal? to get back to us about whether or not a) he's going to raise rent for certain on our apartment, b) whether our offer of $200 increase was suitable to him if so, c) if our offer isn't suitable, but he has a counter-offer, or d) whether we're going to be moving. So that is one specific thing I would like not to be on my list. :P

I have looked at options around d. They are not pretty. If I had to right now, I could buy a house. It would not be in a location I want, and it would mean I can't go back to school, most likely. I would also imagine it would lock me into my current job for a minimum of two years, and likely more than that. It also makes me extremely wary about what might happen were I ever to lose my job, not that I think that's particularly likely.

If our landlord is okay with the increase we offered or one that is similar and not say 100% more than what we offered, we talked about looking into a two year lease. This would let me definitely a) go to school safely and have time to finish my degree and/or b) have enough money to put a down payment on a house I'm more likely to want to live in all. Hopefully one I'd be happy with for years to come.

If our landlord does not get back to us soon, I think my brain might explode.

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May. 17th, 2013 12:13 am (UTC)
What will you study?
May. 17th, 2013 03:51 pm (UTC)
I don't know if this is particularly common knowledge, but I never finished my bachelor's in music when I left school. This would be to finish an undergrad degree in IT from a decent school while still working full time. If I can do that without going berzerk.

Coursework is generalized, and includes stuff from standpoint of BAs, PMs, DBAs and programmers to get an overall sense of stuff. This seemed particularly appealing to me, because I'm not wholly done with the "what do I want to be when I grow up?" discussion, and would love to get more info about database stuff, specifically. The past year in this job has had a lot of new learning in that area, and it seems generally a good thing.
May. 17th, 2013 12:41 pm (UTC)
*sends many healing and encouraging thoughts!*

Lila says we should not make any major life decisions between now and next Sunday. I suspect that would apply to your living situation? But not sure whether that's actually helpful or relevant. But yeah.
May. 17th, 2013 03:53 pm (UTC)
<3 This is fair and sensible, and I am generally trying not to be stuck on it, though behaviour of our landlord is not helping in that regard. He contacted us and said, "I will come on Monday at 6 to talk about it," which a) isn't going to happen, because none of us will be there, and b) is not *information*. He just doesn't want to give us information via any means that is not face to face, and when he is in person, he's ridiculously difficult to understand.

...okay, I'm not doing well at not dwelling on this. I will try to do better at not thinking about this just yet.
May. 17th, 2013 05:34 pm (UTC)
What a lot of stress. I hope some of it dissipates soon, and in the direction of not having to move!

*many hugs* (to be delivered at Balticon)
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